ten you challenge: eight fears

This probably won't be a picture heavy post... because well you know. Scary stuff.

{one}
Number one spot for sure goes to snakes. That's all...can't talk about it. I

{two}
Spiders. My mom is reading this and laughing. I was always squeamish around them, but after a very terrifying encounter with a huge spider at my mom's friends it just got worse. We saw one when we were going to bed and my mom told me that she killed it (we're talking enormousness size of a golf ball spider) and let me fall asleep blissfully thinking it was dead but really it just ran away since she didn't feel like finding it. The next night it came back and I nearly had a heart attack and it took like 20 whacks to kill. Then the next year she bought a rubber spider that looked the same and put it next to my pillow... I screamed so loud my mom's friend had to sleep with her son that night. Henceforth I just really don't like them at all.

{three}
the dark...specifically in the bush. The part that How I Met Your Mother fails to talk about is the reason why Canadians are afraid of the dark, or at least why I am. Whenever I'm camping I get so afraid of all the animals outside. Last year I saw 9 bears in the week around my camping trip. I also had a yelping fox outside my tent at my family cottage. You know how scary going pee is when all those creatures are out there? I inevitably will get someone to pee with me, then get comfortable in my tent, get scared about going outside to go pee alone in the middle of the night and then have to pee again. Every. Time. 

{four}

ultrasounds. Listen here... I have bladder issues. For realz. I have a self-proclaimed 70 year old man bladder. I have to pee before I go anywhere, do anything, and then go again. Road trips are awful. Planes are the worst. I'm actually terrified of having an ultrasound because I hear that you have to have a very full bladder and they won't let you pee and then they push on it. 

{five}

infertility. Speaking of ultrasounds... I'm really afraid that whenever I get around to meeting someone and get around to getting engaged and then getting married and wanting kids that I will have troubles with infertility. Terrifies me. 

need boys and babies at some point. 

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{six}

meeting someone. Sure I want to be single now, but I'm also very afraid that by the time that I want to meet someone I'll have to wait a long time or that I'll meet the wrong person again or that I end up an old maid. Real concerns people.

{seven} 

losing someone again. Grief is messy and it sucks. I miss my brother every day and that was the hardest thing I've ever been through. I hope it's a very very very very very very long time before I ever have to deal with losing someone close to me again.

{eight}

everything. I'm a bit of a hypochondriac and it extends to people around me. I am afraid of headaches being tumours and Vada not letting my touch one part of her back being some big thing. I'm going to be a mom that worries about everything. I like to think this is getting better, I'm not nearly as bad as I used to be, but it's still a problem.