3132nd: 45:14.8 (37:26.0)
Well I did it! It was amazing! Crossing that finish line was honestly one of the most surreal and amazing moments of my life. Once upon a time I thought I could never run. I thought I just wasn't built for it, it wasn't for me. I could find my strengths elsewhere and truly thought I would never be able to run.
Today I proved myself wrong and showed myself if you set your mind to anything you can accomplish it! As of next week I'm starting my training for a 10K and my goal is to run the half marathon one year from today (or whenever the Ottawa Race Weekend happens to fall a year from now).
My intention was to run the race in the 10:1 pace (10 minutes running, one minute walking - through the entire race). My friend and I started out further back and once the gun went off, we didn't even move. Did I mention 9000 people ran this race? So we stood and waited, by the time we got to the start line it had been 8 minutes. There were so many people we were dodging... walkers, children and people all over the place. We ran the first 12 minutes together (and then I lost her, she finished in 33 minutes!) and then we took a walk break - and that's when I regretted pushing myself to 12 minutes - I felt great, but the next 10 minutes was rough. I walked for about 30 seconds during that interval, and then the remainder of the race I ran 10:1. At the 750m mark I had my last walk break and then I just started running as fast as I could. The finish line was in my view and I knew I was almost there! Crossing that finish line was such an amazing feeling. Ten weeks of training all for a moment - and let's just say, that moment was so worth it.
It was a pretty emotional race for me. Like I said after about 13 minutes I ran the remainder alone. This race was such a sign of my progress over the past few months. I started running about a week before Stewart and I broke up, and here I was 2 months later running a 5K. My life has changed so much. Even though there were children running faster than me I had to remind myself how far I have truly come. I never want to lose that feeling of accomplishment. I never thought I could do this.
I may not be quite ready to completely move on (read: ended up cancelling date), but I am in a whole different place. I have goals that I have made and smashed them. I rocked it. I did it. I can do anything. I am okay with me. I am okay to be with myself for now. To date me. To figure myself out again...because if only two months of being with myself has shown me anything - taking a summer to myself can only bring even more wonderful things.
I am going to sort out everything in my life and be in a place where I am 1000% happy with my life. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy, but I want to be fantastic. I want to feel like I am the best version of myself, and right now I only feel like I'm getting there. I am on the right path, and I cannot wait to see where it leads.
Today felt like the first day of my new life. Today meant everything to me. I can't wait to see what the future has in store for me!